I am not a perfect mother....

It was not a beautiful day to start i know.... i'm a little bit irritated and disappointed last night... and I guess my patience was really being tested.

Mga bata talaga! they were arguing over simple things this morning, nakaka irita ang iyak, ang ingay ni Chuchu, nakakainis sya... It was a mix of emotions and I wasn't able to control it. Nagalit ako sa mga babies ko. Naawa ako kay Ate kasi I felt like I was being a monster mom kanina, I was combing her hair with irritation that seems I was pulling her hair na. It actually made her cry and hindi ko napigilan, I called Caneth to feed her, then I ran upstairs. I cried sa room ko... I felt guilty... I should have not done that!

When I went down, I was not looking at them specially to Denise. Feeling ko kasi na if pinansin ko sya, it'll be unfair for ate. So hindi ko sya kiniss nung paalis nako. And nung naglalakad na kami ni Ate on the way to school, I asked her, do you always want me to get angry with you? Diba sabi ko naman sau na wag mo nalang patulan ung kapatid mo at maliit pa un, hindi pa un nakakaintindi... tango lang naman ng tango si Ate. Sorry Ate ha...

I always wanted all the good things for them, the best for them, the best of everything, the best of me... but i know sometimes i slip off.... I am not a perfect person..nor a perfect mom.. but I'm trying to be the best for them.. i know...